Wednesday, October 31, 2012

This is Halloween...

This year we watched Hocus Pocus and did lots of scary homework...

Monday, October 15, 2012

I don't know how to be something you miss...

The other day I was going through our storage when I found all twenty-six letters that I wrote Gabe while he was on his mission... as I read through them I realized how much I missed him while he was gone those two years (I really wish I still had all the ones he wrote me... recanting tells of banana eating contests and Christmas cards) I had found in Gabe my truest friend and I didn't know how to say goodbye to that for two years. I had broke up with guys before, but never my best friend. I didn't know how to handle it.

The first time we said goodbye was in the living room of my dingy garage apartment. He walked out the door and then came back for one last bye. I watched him get into his dad's truck so they could take him back to Kansas at the end of our first year of college. I sat on my couch and watched I am still not sure what... for hours. He text me lyrics to cheesy songs and I fell asleep.

The last time we saw each other before his mission we said goodbye in the basement of his house in Kansas. We were playing pool and he was uploading all of his music on my computer, just in case something happened to it while he was gone. Run by Snow Patrol came on and we both just stood there. I left his house with a favorite t-shirt and cried for most of the fifteen hour drive back to Utah. 

The last time we talked on the phone we officially broke up (we would have broke up long before but we had this competition going, I had never had a guy break up with me and he had never broke up with a girl, I was determined to break my record and he was determined to keep his going) I say he broke up with me but I am sure he would argue. We got off the phone and that was it. We played phone tag a few times but nothing else happened except a few texts.

I figured out life while he was gone and I was glad for the chance to get to know myself a little bit more. I was just fine. But, I am glad I have my best friend back. For good this time.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Take Exit 43...

There are moments in this life that are perfect... and the more I recognize them, the more I realize they are not so much about where I am but who I am with, and sometimes what I am doing.

Even if it is making chocolate covered pretzels, at 10 o'clock at night, while dinner and homework are being finished, with a really good friend and her bridesmaid, who just happened to become my bosom buddy by the end of the night.

I once saw this movie where Kirsten Dunst takes mental pictures of moments she wants to remember... I want a video of tonight... the entire thing. 

Friday, October 5, 2012


Another late night at the library brings the need for a playlist. I am feeling a bit nostalgic tonight and this will most likely reflect it.

Set Fire to the Third Bar -Snow Patrol
Bring Him Home -Les Miserables Soundtrack
Tribute -Martin O'Donnell and Michael Salvatori (Halo 3 soundtrack)
The Cave -Mumford and Sons
Overkill -Colin Hay
Shake It Out -Florence and the Machine
Heroes -David Bowie
It's Time -Imagine Dragons
Jesus -Brand New
Chasing Cars -Snow Patrol (live from BNN) no other version will do
Us -Regina Spektor
One of Those Days -Joshua Radin
Bicycle Races -Queen
That's Life -Frank Sinatra
Vienna Waits for You -Billy Joel

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Just the sky, the earth, and us...

Discover the best priorities and follow your heart...

I wrote that in my journal I am not sure when. It is probably a quote from someone. I love it. There are so many things in this world that grab at my attention, and a lot of them are somewhat useless... every few months I have to get rid of the junk; the needless time spent following a tv show, unhealthy relationships that aren't going anywhere, that new ridiculous website, and the list goes on.

And the best part is, when I am finished I usually have time for the things I really love... like an overdue long run... that book I think I don't have time to read... quality time with my favorite people and places... and the list goes on.