a sickly state of mind

I have been oober sick as of late.
I thought things were bad when I had a severe sinus infection, until I got strep throat too. I thought that was miserable until I became even more ill with food poisoning and let me tell you, that was hellacious.

But, all is well that ends well and I am thankfully back at work today. While I was sick there was a lot of time for thinking and here are some of the things I came up with:

I have always been deathly afraid of apocalyptic type movies, I do not like the idea of the world ending with aliens or nuclear bombs or zombies. I also tend to have an overactive imagination at times. Combine the two with being delirious because of sickness and it can be interesting. So... after imagining my impending death due to a tornado that caused an earthquake to make a tsunami I decided enough is enough!

We can live with fear directing our lives or we can lead our lives too busy for fear. I am not talking about living in denial I am simply talking about living.

Yes, the economy is scary. Graduating school, having babies, making money, moving away, natural disasters, toupe Trump being president... all of these things can be really frightening. But that's not what life is about, if we live our lives revolving around a world of scaremongers where will that get us?

If I am living a great life and that tornado earthquake tsunami takes me out... Awesome. That just means it is time for my next adventure.

my soldiers

I'm usually not the mushy type, I don't do cheesy and chick flicks are a rarity but I think I may have overlooked telling two of the people I love most what they have done for me.

I have two soldiers, they have always been my protectors, they have always defended my safe place.
Now, they are defending are yours too.

Kris and Matt, I am grateful for your service every day. I pray for your safety and for your families while you are gone. I miss you both more than you know.

One day, you will no longer have to fight but until then;

You would tease and taunt until tears ran down my face
but if anyone else was to try the same you made them regret it
Move after move you were my best friends
I was so glad to have security guards when the boys came around
Now you fight overseas with guns in your hands
Wearing camouflage and an American flag
We don't always agree on politics or religion
But you fight to make sure I can always have my opinions
Take heed, take care but most of all do whatever it takes to stay safe

confession...

I am sitting here listening to some Justin Bieber while the husband is playing Zelda. Nerd alert anyone?

In other news, my cousin came over tonight with her husband and adorable children. I love my family.

We saw Pirates last night/ this morning, it was a midnight showing. I was not impressed.

I am finally getting over the worst and only sinus infection I have had in my life (how dramatic does that sound?!)

It is Friday night and I have no intentions of going anywhere...

I am exhausted...

Between a late night OKC Thunder basketball game (three overtimes!!)
and husband being sick all night I didn't sleep very well.

husband is feeling much better, minus the lack of sleep and I really hope that we both make it through the work/school day.

Oh what I would give to lay my head down on this desk and just drift off...

The good news is it has FINALLY stopped raining outside. I can just feel summer coming....

we can't always have it our way...

sometimes I am far too human for my own good. I want what I want and I want it now. But that isn't how life is, as Jeffrey R. Holland once said "life isn't a fast food restaurant, you can't just order what you want."

And I am thankful for that, because if what I want isn't what I get it is usually not what I need.

I need to be patient, to learn and to grow no matter how painful it is. I do not need new nice things, a limitless bank account and to travel around the world (not yet at least ;) )

I need a wonderful and loving husband. I don't need a perfect one.

I need to go to school, to get a degree and to become the best self I can. I do not need to have the highest GPA or to graduate with three degrees.

I need to trust in the Lord. I do not need to know how it is everything will be okay, even when my little world seems to be tumbling down.