Monday, November 30, 2009

third times the charm

I'm not sure why but as of late i seem to attract a lot of attention from police officers while hanging out with my friend Gabe. I've been pulled over three times in the past little bit while in his company. each time i was given a warning, and each time it seemed it was a bit ridiculous i was pulled over in the first place. this morning while being pulled over we were both trying hard not to laugh when the officer asked to see my license and registration... i mean come on, what are the odds?! we figure this is a record of some sort, especially because this morning i was pulled over for traveling too slow (a Goolsby girl... what?!)

1. I was driving on University Ave and was pulled over as the officer informed me that my back left tail light was partially out, but he gave me a warning as long as I promised to get it replaced by that Friday

2. Sitting in my car listening to music and talking about our missions a police officer comes up to my car to inform me that the park had closed over two hours ago, to make the story better I didnt have my current insurance card or registration in the car. After checking both our licenses the officer told me that he should probably make me park my car and take me home but that he was going to make me park my car and then leave, what I did after that was up to me... I came home and put my updated information in the car that night...

3. Driving to the airport this morning we saw a police officer right behind me and laughed saying wouldnt it be funny... and then the officer turned his lights on and I was informed that if someone approaches your vehicle from behind in the two far left lanes in Utah you should get over. I was impeding traffic by going 5 over in the left lane. I had left my license at home because I wasnt planning on driving, I was driving Gabe's roommate Dane's car (registration expired). The officer once again took Gabe's license and my information and then gave me a warning. I think our saving grace was that Gabe was writing his talk for church and had a preach my gospel open on his lap...

Hopefully this trend has come to a close... I really dont know how many more menial laws I can break...

Wednesday, November 25, 2009


i LOVE the holidays. i think its mostly about the food... seriously, those smells wafting through the house are like home, no matter where it is i am. that being said, i'm eating papa john's pizza for thanksgiving and in TRUE cliche form of things i am thankful for...

- the gospel
- music
- my family
- giant bean bags
- late night talks with frosty's
- friends who get me
- comfy hoodies
- hot showers
- stick shift cars
- pumpkin flavored anything
- shoes
- artwork in all its varieties
- snow
- toothpaste
- running shoes
- stripped socks
- babies
- football
- crunchy leaves
- love
- dancing
- rain
- stuffing
- pretty much all food
- movie theatres
- slurpees
- roommates most days
- a prophet who lives today
- sleep
- puppy dogs
- curly hair
- hot chocolate
- my car
- hulu
- musicals
- ice
- nutella
- concerts
- peppermint ice cream

Monday, November 16, 2009

i am NOT

a quitter... a daddy's girl... or anyone's girl for that matter... my little sister's answering service or information channel... someone to shy away from the truth, however raw it may be... coordinated... unsure of who i am... lacking in the amazing friend department... prepared for the winter... ready to be in a relationship... patient with those i dont have respect for... finished learning... giving in... going to let Him down... a fan of doing dishes or saying goodbye

Friday, November 13, 2009


Today is TWOLHA.
To Write Love On Her Arms
for the full story of how this movement was started go to TWLOHA
but this is my story: I have more than one person who I love dearly who has suffered from severe depression and has attempted suicide. You know who you are and I hated to see the hurt you went through and the struggles you faced but I have been grateful to see you fighting to overcome them as well. You are an example to me of what it means to fight everyday to merely survive. I know its difficult, I know its not fun but I want you to know that above all there is hope and I love you. I believe in you and I know that you can do this.

I dedicate the love on my arms to you

To Write Love on Her Arms is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery.

To Write Love On Her Arms Day is a day where anyone can write the words love on their arms, to support those who are fighting against depression and those who are trying to recovering.

The vision is that we actually believe these things…

You were created to love and be loved. You were meant to live life in relationship with other people, to know and be known. You need to know that your story is important and that you're part of a bigger story. You need to know that your life matters.

We live in a difficult world, a broken world. My friend Byron is very smart - he says that life is hard for most people most of the time. We believe that everyone can relate to pain, that all of us live with questions, and all of us get stuck in moments. You need to know that you're not alone in the places you feel stuck.

We all wake to the human condition. We wake to mystery and beauty but also to tragedy and loss. Millions of people live with problems of pain. Millions of homes are filled with questions – moments and seasons and cycles that come as thieves and aim to stay. We know that pain is very real. It is our privilege to suggest that hope is real, and that help is real.

You need to know that rescue is possible, that freedom is possible, that God is still in the business of redemption. We're seeing it happen. We're seeing lives change as people get the help they need. People sitting across from a counselor for the first time. People stepping into treatment. In desperate moments, people calling a suicide hotline. We know that the first step to recovery is the hardest to take. We want to say here that it's worth it, that your life is worth fighting for, that it's possible to change.

Beyond treatment, we believe that community is essential, that people need other people, that we were never meant to do life alone.

The vision is that community and hope and help would replace secrets and silence.

The vision is people putting down guns and blades and bottles.

The vision is that we can reduce the suicide rate in America and around the world.

The vision is that we would learn what it means to love our friends, and that we would love ourselves enough to get the help we need.

The vision is better endings. The vision is the restoration of broken families and broken relationships. The vision is people finding life, finding freedom, finding love. The vision is graduation, a Super Bowl, a wedding, a child, a sunrise. The vision is people becoming incredible parents, people breaking cycles, making change.

The vision is the possibility that your best days are ahead.

The vision is the possibility that we're more loved than we'll ever know.

The vision is hope, and hope is real.

You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

my playlist tonight...

tonight i came to a well known but forgotten conclusion, which is this: i am in love
with music. its true. and the man who comes along and is able to surpass that... well i suppose that is what my real life fairy tale will consist of. and until then i will have nights like this one, where as the more i listen the further i fall. tonight's love goes to:
1. I Never Loved A Man (the way I love you) -Aretha Franklin
2. Whose Side Are You On? -Doubting Paris
3. I and Love and You - The Avett Brothers
4. Get Me Right -Dashboard Confessional
5. Respect - Aretha Franklin
6. You Wait for Rain - Kyler England
7. My Pretty Eyes - Rediscover
8. Chicago - Sufjan Stevens
9. Beethoven's Fifth Gold Digger- A and D mashup
10. Angel Flying Too Close to the Ground - Willie Nelson
11. Wannabe - The Spice Girls
12. I Won't - Colbie Caillat
13. So He Won't Break - The Black Keys
14. Chasing the Daylight - Phillip Larue
15. We Are Broken -Paramore

thank you music world. i needed you to get me through the hours of this day

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

oh Chris Carrabba how you get me... get me right

this is dashboard confessional's latest. the album comes out in 6 days and i havent been this excited for an album in ages.only thing that could amke this better is if i could share it with Mat. but in the mean time....

get it right
by chris carrabba

I make my slow way home
Limpin' on broken bones
Out of the sickest heart
Onto the county lines
Onto your wooden stairs
I know you can't repair
I know you've seen the light
I know you'll get me right

I own a sinner's heart
I know the rain falls hard
I know the currency
I know the things you'll need
I know you say the prayers
I see you cut your hair
I know you get me right

Oh Jesus, I've fallen
I don't mind the rain if
I meet my maker
Clear, Jesus, I don't mind
I don't rush the reasons
I need my maker
To cure me of the sins I love
And take me out of my thinning blood
Take from me my disbelief
I know it should come easily
But it remains inside of me
It battles and devours me
It cuddles up beside of me
In whispers, it convinces me I'm