Tuesday, August 12, 2008

be my mirror my sword my shield...

i'm at one of those waiting points in life which gives maximum opportunity for contemplation and since i have this blog going on why not share some of that thinking

i like being silly people who take life too seriously are kind of ridiculous and i tend to just laugh at them spooning with my roommates until 2 am talking about who knows what is much more fun than sleeping

that having been said, sometimes life is difficult really serious issues arise that must be dealt with and they need to be taken care of in a serious matter i would say this occurs more often than not in my case but... that doesnt mean i cant be lighthearted with the rest of life

the most disappointing thing as of late is thinking i know someone and then finding out they just arent who i thought they were theyre more shallow or selfish or mean somehow but on the flipside theres always those people who surprise me by being better than i thought

i'm at the age where i need to decide what to do with this life or at least what direction i want to go in and i think i am finally getting there i really just want to help people to take the knowledge i have been given and share it with others to better their lives so far my plan is to go on a mission for my church for 18 months, come back and go to nursing school (and maybe be a physician's assistant i havent decided), and then work with humanitarian aid somewhere ive been given so much in this life i want a chance to give back

i love nature the colors shapes and experience of it all my friend matt and i took a drive the other day and due to traffic decided to hang out in the canyon for a little bit it started raining and as a patch of sunlight broke through the clouds and spotlighted the green greys and blue of the mountainside i was amazed at how simplistic beauty can be